Goal Calendar, Not For Sissies.

I'm not messing around!!! I am going to reach my goal or I should say I'm going to accomplish multiple goals.  When I think of my big picture goal, I get a little overwhelmed. I question whether or not I can do this.  But when I think in terms of smaller goals, I feel so much more capable. I have realized that the key here, is to always keep going with new goals.  There is no stopping point where suddenly I can go back to eating junk, treating my body like crap, and not exercising.  I will never see that day. 

I put some of my favorite quotes and a couple pictures on my calendar to help me to visualize my goals.  It is also a place where I can mark off my daily work-outs and progress.  The last calendar I made had my inspiration Birthday party dress.  This one I put pictures of hot bikini bodies.  Whatever is driving me, I want to be reminded. 

My favorite quote right now is "Eat for the body you want, not the body you have." 
I know what the body I want looks like, it is strong, athletic, and lean. 
My goal is not for sissies and either is my calendar. 

She Wore an Itsy Bitsy Pink Polka Dot Bikini.

Yesterday was an amazing Saturday.  I was up at 6:30 am.  I made my 3egg white, spinach, and pepper omelet.  I packed my after work-out protein shake and my lunch.  I was at the gym by 7:30.  I made it through 60 minutes of Cycle.  The usual Sat morning instructor was volunteering at Ragnar so we had a sub.  I loved her technique.  She kept us moving through an imaginary bike ride.  Big right and left turns to work our sides and I loved the 3 minutes intervals with a constant progression of incline.  It was Epic. I conquered 26 miles with out leaving the room.

I had a great time with Janabanana at Ikea and I got exactly what I needed for my killer night stand.(A post to follow soon)  I then Finished getting unpacked at the new place.  
After my long list of to-do's were marked off, I spent a delicious hour at the pool, soaking up the sun and stretching out my muscles in the water.

As I mentioned in my previous post, I have had a problem with being vulnerable.  I only want people to see the best in me.  In someways its being good at P.R.  Its projecting a positive image.  But it has also been exhausting trying to be perfect.  This is wear the Bikini comes in.  I have the cutest Pink Polka Dot Bikini.  I got the top last summer but always covered it with a tank top.  I didnt even dare buy the bottoms.  Well, for the sake of being brave, a couple weeks back I saw a pink stripped bikini bottom, with the exact shade of pink as my top and without giving in to my fear...went to the check out counter. 
So yesterday when my room-mate said "lets go to the pool" I had a mini panic attack.  All of my other swim suits were packed away.  I stood there in the mirror staring at the cutest swimsuit I have ever owned, wondering if I could do it.  The funny thing about this battle is that wearing a tankini really doesn't make me look any thinner, it just adds more fabric.  So why was this so hard for me?  

Hard or not, I walked out there.  Every step was beyond uncomfortable. But I did it anyway and loved the feeling of the my skin soaking up the sun.  But most importantly I loved the feeling of being weightless in the water without being weighed down by layers of hiding... I mean fabric. 
I am doing the things that scare me and just embracing my body where I am at.  It was completely uncomfortable.  But It was also empowering.

My Itsy Bitsy Teeny Tiny Pink Polka Dot Bikini make me happy just looking at it and that is what matters when I walk out to the pool.