What I Didnt Know I Knew

This week has been crazy.  I worked a full week and then spent 4 nights in a row baking like a mad person.  I had cakeballs to make for the Farmers Market today and a plethora of yummy treats to make for my lovely cousin Tori's baby shower, and a dinner party last night where I made my very first Chocolate Souffles.  I will be sure to post pictures.
Maybe it was the exhaustion I felt when I woke up this morning, but I was a little down.  After going to bed late, waking up at 5:45 AM on a Saturday was hard.  But I got out of bed, took a nice shower, and headed to my closet for something "girly."  I decided on a vintage aqua blue pleated skirt, a lace trimmed tank, and then finished my hair and a little make up.  I decided I needed some jewelry to complete my outfit.  I held my Tiffany and Co looking bracelet and necklace and debated.  But on a last minute whim, I went with my only gold jewelry, a little Queen of Hearts playing card necklace, a thin, delicate bracelet, and a costume jewelry pearl and gold ring.
I scrabbled to get everything for the market loaded in my car, I started my engine and hit the road.  I was running later than I had liked, but something on that drive changed me.  I felt calm and peace come over me.  I was even a little emotional as I drove, thinking about how many wonderful people I have in my life that make me feel so loved, people who back me up, who show up to help me time and time again, who bring me chicken noodle soup even when Im not sick, who get up early on Saturdays to help me at the market, people who make me laugh, and most importantly let me just be me.  I realized how happy I was and every worry that hung over my morning was lighter.
The market was pretty much the same as usual but my dear friend Sherie came to help and brought a little envelope full of questions.  They were pretty standard "get to know you" questions, although we have been friends for a decade so it wasn't necessary.  One of these simple questions changed the way I thought of my whole day and made me wonder if sometimes we know things we dont know we know.
Sherie asked me "What is the best gift you have ever given and who did you give it to?"
The instant she asked me, I knew the answer. The best gift I have ever given was a hot air balloon ride to my Gramgram on her 83rd birthday.  It was a magical.  I told her I had a surprise and to be ready early.  I picked her up and drover her to Eden, Ut all the while she kept trying to figure out what I had planned for her.  Once we entered the valley and she saw the balloons sprinkling the skyline she gasped "No!"  And I said "YES!"  I will never forget how awesomely agile she was for 83, climbing in to that basket or how incredibly happy it made me to give her something, since she never wanted presents.  I didn't get to go up with her, there wasn't enough room, so I watched from the ground as she drifted up. 
The whole thing played out in my mind when Sherie asked me the question and so I said "the hot air balloon ride for my Grams."  Just as the words left my lips I suddenly realized that today was August 20th, my Gramgrams birthday.

It was only a little later I realized that the "vintage" skirt I chose this morning was my Grams, she gave it to me before shed died , along with the jewelry.  Short of the Tank and my underthings, I was a walking homage to my Grams on her birthday. 
I don't know why all of these things came together today.  Today would have passed as any other day, filled with a farmer market, a baby shower, and a much needed nap, if Sherie hadn't torn open her envelope of questions.  
I have to wonder why I wore so many things of hers?  Maybe in my heart, sometimes I know things I didn't know I knew.  And Maybe my Gramgrams was with today.